Feeling Very Unmotivated at Work and Thinking of Quitting
After one week plus of reservist, when I went back to work, I feel so unmotivated, every little thing seems to trigger my urge to throw letter, but every time many things are holding me back, first thing that comes to my mind is my family, my cute little baby girl, my wife, what will happen if I throw letter, or what if I can't find a job, or what will my boss think of me after he placed so much trust in me and etc, it's like my mind is hosting a race of its own, with endless cars speeding round and round, makes me feel so giddy. Maybe my recent in-camp training was too long of a holiday, I feel like just lying on bed all day and do nothing, or bring wife and baby and get the hell out of this country, the thought of going to work, doing the same shit that never seem to improve, see the same idiots who never fail to make me hate my job more, the miserably small table which is already so freaking small but I still have to squeeze in more crap, the freaking miserable room which